Lou has kindly asked me...her S.I.L (sister-in-law for those of you who don't know me) to guest blog today whilst she takes a well deserved rest in the sunshine with hubby and the Boos.
So one year on....with a plus 1! (no I am not talking about my dress size).
Mr Smidge - our baby boy is now 6 months old. A gorgeous boy....and oh how life has changed.
Sleep, what's that? Grey hair.....aaah I now know what that is! Hard work...I have always been up for a challenge but this one being out of choice is well worth it!! This weekend I am off to a good friend's wedding and I have been asked to do a biblical reading. In the days before Mr Smidge I would have relished the opportunity to do public speaking but having a child tests your confidence in so many ways. I don't think I have been so unsure of what I am doing or started so many sentances with "why?" and answered all of them with "maybe". It has taken me 6 months to realise with babies it isn't black and white....in fact it is a colourful rainbow of chaos. I have learnt about acceptance. Acceptance that there isn't answers to everything, acceptance of change, acceptance to accept help.
What hasn't changed is my love of Sex and the City re-runs, reading Vogue, Mulberry handbags, Champagne, a good gossip with my girlies and weekends away with my hubby...they just don't happen as often! They say absence makes the heart grow fonder...but I am a want-everything-right-now-girl and a little upset that I still haven't been able to sit and finish watching the final episode in the last series of 'Brothers and Sisters'.
Despite the constant change in my life there will always be the constant of love. Love for my man which is just as strong as the day I met him (except when he only makes a cup of tea for himself without asking if I want one, as he has literally done just this!), love for Mr Smidge, love for family and good friends, love for living life to the fullest. To some up from an extract from the reading I am reciting on Saturday:
"And now these three things remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love"
1 Corinthians 13
Although I am a realist as in the past year four of my friends have separated after being married less than 2 years. That's life?! My motto is never be complacent, always keep it fresh and remember perhaps the only reliable thing in life is a GU hot chocolate fondant!
(in layman's terms don't lose your sense of humour)
Let the sun shine for everyone this weekend even if only metaphorically speaking (4 years ago this weekend we got married and it literally rained cats and dogs). I have to dash now as Mr Smidge is taking an unnerving attraction to my latest Issa number...mental note - move Mumma's smart wardrobe out of the nursery!!
